It's been a while since I've felt this way,
Since I've thought of someone so much in one day
I thought I'd locked up my heart and thrown away the key,
oops, silly me ;)

It's 2:40 am and life is on my brain

Cuando me siento agobiada,
Cuando siento que ya no puedo,
Cierro los ojos y sueño que vuelo

Sueño ver mis alas abrir,
Por siempre escaparme
de lo que no quiero vivir

Sueño bailar con los pájaros
en un lindo amanecer,
Y rozar con las nubes
en un bello atardecer

Sueño con miles de estrellas
poder siempre jugar,
Y que con la luna llena,
en toda su hermosura,
poder siempre conversar

Hoy me vi en el espejo
y no me gustó lo que vi
una mirada fría y llena de anhelo
que me espantó hasta casi sacarme lágrimas
El vacío de mis ojos fue tan vasto,
que me hizo pensar en cómo se verá mi corazón

I looked in the mirror today
and did not like what I saw
A cold, longing stare
that scared me almost to point of tears
The emptiness in my eyes was so vast,
in made me wonder what my heart looked like

Como sueño con que la luna me hable de ti
Que me diga donde estás
Y si estás pensando en mi. . .

I listen to you, but I hear his voice
I look at you, but I see his face
When I'm with you my heart sinks with remorse
I'd give anything in this world to see you for who you are,
and not for what he did



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Usher - You Remind Me

See the thing about you that caught my eye
is the same thing that makes me change my mind
kinda hard to explain but girl i'll try
you need to sit down this may take a while
see this girl she sorta looks just like you
she even smiles just the way you do,
so innocent she seemed but I was fooled
I am reminded when I look at you

CHORUS:
Cos, you remind me of a girl
that I once knew
see her face whenever I , I look at you
couldn't believe all of the things she put me through
this is why i just cant get with you

Thought that she was the one for me
til i found out she was on her creep
oh she, was sexing everyone but me
this is why we could never be

CHORUS:
Cos, you remind me of a girl
that I once knew
see her face whenever I , I look at you
couldn't believe all of the things she put me through
this is why i just cant get with you

You remind me of a girl that i once knew
see her face whenever i, i look at you
Couldn't believe all of the things she put me through
this is why i just cant get with you

I know it is so unfair to you
it is so unfair
That i relayed her ignorance to you
wish I knew
I wish I knew how to separate the two
you remind me
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We were both fifteen in summer '09
Life was great, we were doing just fine

But Time sneaks up to ruin and change
You drift apart and it's NEVER the same





Imy ♥

Te estaría mintiendo
Si te digo que te quiero

Yo no te puedo decir lo que siento por ti,
Si yo misma no estoy segura

¿Desde cuando?
¿Desde cuando tu me dices qué sentir?
¿Desde cuando?
¿Desde cuando mi corazón te pertenece a ti?

Hoy, los ojos permanecen secos
Y el que llora. . . es el corazón

If you thought you hurt me,
You thought wrong

To tell you the truth,
I've never felt more free

I've learned from every guy
that's passed this way
I've grown from every player
in this age-old game
From every heartache
From every almost-heartbreak
They haven't made me bend or break
They've only proved to me they're all the same

I just realized i haven't written in a long time.

It's just that I think of the best things when I'm about to fall asleep, then I forget to write them down and then forget everything all together.

I'll try to write soon, though I'm sure no one reads this. . . I write for myself, not for others, so it's all good.

I thought eventually you would come.
I'm done waiting.
My time is far too precious
To spend it waiting on you...

La vida y la experiencia
Me han enseñado a no ilusionarme
Pero cáda vez que te miro,
Es más y más imposible no hacerlo :)

You used to be my refuge
You used to be my sanctuary
You used to give me comfort
When the world was just too scary

You've become a stranger,
My haven, a place of danger
My safe place, shattered
I've become forgotten, abandoned
Guess I just don't matter

Where do you turn,
When the place you felt safe,
Is nothing but a strange place?

Where do you go,
When the haven you'd run to,
Becomes the reason you're running?

The change was so subtle
So minuscule
So quiet, but so drastic
We drifted apart
Before we could catch it

Tears stinging in my eyes,
I look back at our good times
Trying to figure out where it went wrong,
Where we took that fateful wrong turn,
When time decided to defy us,
And turn everything against us

Luna llena
Grande y hermosa
Si pudieras hablar,
¿Me dirías una cosa?
¿Me dirías su cada secreto,
Y su cada ilusión,
Solo para yo saber
Lo que siente su corazón?

I'm sorry if I hurt you
In any little way
But the world insists on making me insane
More and more each day

Se va acercando
Y voy pensando
Que no vale la pena
Que siga luchando

Baby girl, so innocent and pure
Holding you so close,
How I wish I could freeze this moment forever
So that I'd never have to see you grow...
You'll find this world full of pain and sorrow,
Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow
But soon I know you'll shed some tears,
And I wish I could rob you of those moments
Filled with hopelessness and fear

Imperfection is not beauty
Imperfection is a nasty curse
That we are forced to live with
For every second of all our lives

When did it come to this?
How I long for those carefree days
Where nothing truly mattered
Where the simplest things made us happy
And forgiveness was puppy dog eyes
And a simple "I'm sorry"

I hope it chills you to the bone
When you feel the ghost of my presence
Breathing down your neck
Whispering in your ear:

"Why did you do this to me?"

As of that moment, I started living for myself
Forget everyone around me
Because people come in and out of your life with the soul intention
of leaving you, hurting you, and making you feel lost
As of that moment, I built a stone wall around my icy heart
And I'll live happily ever after...

Sometimes it's hard to tell
when a memory is good or bad,
when it makes you laugh
but it makes you sad...

My attitude has changed
I got more power to my name
I'm walking with my head held high
Cus I'm not gonna beat myself up
Over some guy

It's one of those things you can never be sure of. One of those things that always keeps you wondering. That plays with your head, until you've gone just about crazy. That makes you feel out of control & lost, not knowing what to do. It's one of those things that consumes you, leaving you with nothing else but unsettling thoughts of that other person... This 'love' thing is a funny thing

The last conversation tore through me as if each word had razors...
I hung up the phone and cried myself to sleep,
Hoping I'd wake up and realize it had all just been a dream...

With every second that passes
The moment seems more and more far away,
More and more in a haze
Like something I just imagined,
That didn't really happen

I'm living with a heavy heart & a lump in my throat...Come back soon, 'cus I don't wanna live without you...

Sometimes things will be out of your control, & there will be nothing you can do...But take a deep breath & don't let it get to you. Sometimes the best thing to do is wait, and let things fall into place...

Te extraño mi amor
Te extraño corazón
Sin ti mi vida no tiene razón
¿Cuando vas a venir a verme,
Y tenerme juno a ti?
¿Cuando vas a llevarme,
Llevarme lejos de aquí?

This one i'm not too sure about but im writing it anyway
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Hoy te vi hablando con ella
Diciendole que ya no podías
Seguir junto a ella
Me puse a pensar
Si es que al fin te diste cuenta
Lo mucho que eres en mi vida
Y que sin ti, mi alma no respira

Nadie sabe lo que estoy sintiendo
Este fuego que me está ardiendo
Que me está consumiendo

No quiero quererte
Pero no sales de mi mente
No quiero amarte
Pero es tan dificil olvidarte

Se que te tengo que dejar
Pero tus besos no los quiero extrañar
Se que me tengo que alejar
Y este fuego me termina de matar

Eres mi vida
Eres mi cielo
No tienes idea
Cuanto te quiero
Eres el sol de mis días
Eres el aire que respiro
Mi corazón salta
Cada vez que te miro

All this anger bottled up inside
All these feelings do nothing but hide
I can't express my thoughts
Because no one really cares
I cant speak my mind
Because no one is really there
All my angry thoughts
All my unspoken words
Trapped in my brain
Like a caged in bird
Waiting to be set free
Waiting to be heard

--Or to make more simple--

All my angry thoughts
All my unspoken words
Trapped in my brain
Like a caged in bird
Waiting to be set free
Waiting to be heard

I want to cry
I want to scream and shout
And get rid of everything
That's hurting me from the inside out
But the tears don't come
And I'm left alone
Without the company of a single tear
So I'm yelling in my head
Where no one can here

They say that tears are words the heart can't say.
So what about tears you can't shed?
The ones that hide behind fake smiles and 'I'm fine's.
The ones you have to blink away when you're in public, so no one sees you.
The ones you can't even shed at night, to help lull you to sleep.
What about those?

There's something there, there's no doubt
I just have to figure it out
It's just something that I need to know
To know which way I should go
Doesn't matter what I find
But for once I need some peace of mind

My days just got a little brighter
My head just got a little lighter
I have something new to look forward to
I have something new to hold on to...

Ignore the feelings
Forget the laughs
Lock up the memories
And never look back...

"I loved you"
"I loved you too"
And with that hug they parted,
Wishing what they just ended
Had never started...

At it again

From the moment he looked at me and smiled
That boy started driving me wild
Here comes another jerk to fall for
Here comes another heartbreak at my door

Me & My Stupid Mind

He hurt me deep, made me cry
Felt like I wanted to die
I promised never to love again
I just didn't want to hurt again..
From love I had nothing to gain
I'd rather save myself the pain..
But I let my guard down for a second too long
Now I did something really wrong
It was something I vowed not to do
But now I can't stop thinking of you

Las falsas ilusiones
Son lo peor que puede haber
Despues que se desvanece
La supuesta i l u s i ó n
Solo queda la m e n t i r a
Entonces ya es
Demasiado t a r d e ...

Ojala y te me borraras para siempre de mi vida
Para no volverte a ver
para nunca mas tener q pretender
q todo esta bien
q solo te quiero como un amigo
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They talk about us,
Saying we were great together.
They don't know
We never were.
Not now, not ever.

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Must you be so amazing?
Just the mention of your name invalidates any other speech,
Words flow from my mouth but fall swiftly to the floor,
Immediately bowing to your grace in humble silence,

No sound reaches your ear because it is simply not worthy,
I appear to be speechless before you, and perhaps I may be,
I could say a million things, but they won’t mean a thing,
It places such a weight on my mind to know that I cannot speak,

I look to the sky so that I might speak with God’s voice
For only he can comprehend what he so masterfully created,
In the instant of a blink my eyes open with new sight,
I am dizzy, lightheaded, and so much more than breathless,

But at least now I understand why to you I could not speak,
Silence honors your beauty so much more than words ever could,
So to you I offer my lack of words as a bouquet of delicate flowers,
And hope that you understand the struggle I have just overcome.
-www.Legendarypoet.com
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The urge to hold your hand
Is more than I can stand.
An urge that I can't handle,
That burns me like a candle.
The more I know I can't
The more I know I want to,
& the more I know I can't,
The more I know I want you...
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Thinking of you thinking of me
Knowing it just couldn't be.
Remembering how we used to be...
Inseparable, you & me.
Regretting the things i didn't say,
Wondering what could have been
Of us today...
All I needed to do Was say I loved you,
Even though you already knew.
But I was selfish & stupid,
And from you these feelings I hid.
I knew what I had
But still took you for granted.
I realize now, You're all I ever wanted...

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¿Por que la gente ama el amor,
cuando duele tanto?
¿Acaso estoy haciendo algo mal?
¿Acaso no lei el manual?

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No te miro a los ojos
por miedo a perderme
y no encontrar
mi camino de regreso ♥



I had sooooo much more but i erased them :( yo de boba